Thursday, March 11, 2010

Holding back the tears....

My beautiful daughter Jac was in a Bridal show last weekend. I knew they were showing brides, maids and proms. I think somewhere in my head I was thinking she would be wearing one of the prom or brides maids dresses...I knew there would be a chance she would be wearing a wedding dress but I just didn't want to get my hopes up and really wasn't sure how I would handle it emotionally if I seen her in one. I arrived late and walked in to the back...one of my friends daughters was sitting front row and center there didn't appear to be an empty seat in the place until she pointed to the one beside her....it was right in the front row....at the end of the catwalk! I found my way over and sat down.


Girl after girl came out wearing beautiful dresses, then the host asked every one to put their hands together for a first time model who came out with 100% confidence like she had done it millions of times before. I seen my daughter in this beautiful white dress and my heart stopped...every mom's dream for their grown daughter is to look like the most beautiful woman on earth the day of her wedding. I had to shake my head and realize this was NOT her day and it was just a show but I couldn't shake it. I know her day will come, I know she WILL be the most beautiful woman in a white gown my eyes will ever see. I long for that day to come. I'm certain she does too. Until then I will dream and hold this image in the for front of my imagination.


My little girl is not a little girl any more....she is a beautiful woman. Wise beyond her years, has a vintage soul, and a heart that embraces life. As parents we always want our children to reach beyond any goals we had set for ourselves and for them to do better than we did. Jac is living that before my eyes and I am so incredibly proud of her. I love you Pan. More than you will ever know. I can't wait for your big day! I can't wait to see you enjoy all the planning and excitment that comes along with it!




All the way home from the bridal show, I couldn't stop crying. I love my baby girl with every part of my being. God says He loves our children more than we do.....Gosh he must love her an awful lot. It's truly unmeasurable the love I have for her.

Oh my leaping heart *sigh*.

6 comments:

Sherri said...

Wow, what beautiful pictures!! Love that hair piece too!!

Lori Howatt said...

OH MY WORD, I can't even speak..... :0)........

Kim said...

BEAUTIFUL photos..
Can't wait to meet you guys in person..
Hugs..

Madeleine said...

Oh she is so pretty. And how fun to do a show and be all dressed up!

:::sigh::: I can tell you from experience, it is worse when it's for real. When my daughter started trying on dresses for her wedding the first time, I was shocked and the reality set in. Yes the tears came freely and often. It became better with time. But when it was her wedding day, it was worse then imaginable. And we LOVE Josiah! He made it easier to let her go.

But she was still our baby girl. Our joy and our delight.

It is hard in a good way. Nothing you would change, just something to survive.

( PS I know this is weird, but your daughter's bone structure is stunning! )

jac said...

wow.. aw mom yer so sweet,and of course u got me all watery eyed haha...i cant wait til the day comes that we get to plan this for real and try on the real dress!!!!!! xxxxoxoxo love u so muchhhh

Shionge said...

I know I'll cry too ... she is beautiful!