This is the perpetual monthly milestone we hit each month while on this roller coaster ride of adopting. It's a time to celebrate that we are still in the game. I'm trying not to look at it in the macro sense of the scheme of things but in the micro so that we can recognise that it may be a small step but it IS indeed a step, and in the right direction. We have to celebrate the little things to appreciate the big things that much more. I think as I walk this road of ups and downs it is important for me to have perspective and keep my eye on the goal. It is my natural inclination to actually feel sorry for myself and the things I don't have so perspective keeps me on a short leash and reminds me of the things I do have. I have faith that God is totally in control and I can rest in that.
Here is an illustration of something that happened this Christmas that really reiterated my faith in Him over this adoption process.
I was sitting on the floor in front of my sofa staring off into the lights and glitter of the tree and as I focused on the word FAITH I felt as if something was looking at me......when I took my focus off the word FAITH my focus changed to what was sitting on my bay window in the background. Isn't it wonderful how faith manifested itself when I was just trusting in Him and enjoying the life He gave me! Thank you God that I am at 19 months and still holding on. Thanks for being there when I am too weak to stand at all. You are my strength.
Go back to the second picture...do you feel anything looking at you!?
Thanks Nadine for the "You Make Me Smile Award" I'm going to pass it on to the first 100 people who leave a comment on my blog!!!!......LOL! You all make me smile now grab it and display it proudly! Hugz