Tuesday, November 14, 2006

The scene at the grocery store!

I was in the grocery store Monday and I met up with my friend Rhonda, she and I chatted about Aiden Jeffery AKA *AJ * for a bit. I told her that we finally got our LID and then proceeded to explain the wait from then ,bla, bla, bla, you've all been there, whether they understand what you are saying or not, so when I get to the part where I explain that while we wait for TA (Travel Approval) 6-8 weeks, we can send her a blanket that smells like home(Baby Ivory),pictures of us and a teddy bear, then I said, "Hey ! you know we could send her one of the ones that you can pre record your voice on it then she would recognize our voice when we have her placed in our arms.".......Well!!!!! the waterworks started...I could not even control it! *Seriously!* I'm fanning my face with my hand and I looked up at her and she was leaking too!!!!!!!! At that point all we could do to break the moment we had was to laugh!!! I can only imagine what people were thinking.
I have to admit I find myself very sensitive lately, these emotions are very real and I might not be able to put my hand on my belly and feel her there but I feel a flutter in my heart when I think of her. The most tangible way I can feel expectant is when I go into her room ,wrap her baby quilt around me, take a deep breath from its baby ivory scent and just feel her presence there. I can sit on the rocking chair and let my imagination go wild with dreams, thoughts, plans, hopes, and aspirations, thats when the Mama hormones kick in and I feel most alive. I'm not one to usually put my venerable self out there but tonight I just felt I had to share this story with all of you who are feeling the Mama hormones that I am. Humm, I wonder if there is any scientific proof that an adopting female parent produces more estrogen while going threw this process, there has to be!
Psalm 34-8, Taste and see that the Lord is good. How happy is the man who takes refuge in him!
Below is the e-mail she sent me and here is my reply back to her. It's nice to know your friends really care. thanks for the moment Rhonda.

Hi Deb, My tears are all dried up now. LOL. Anyways here are some pics of AJ.... ( inserted pic above)

He is just way toooooooooo cute! I love his little smile!
Sorry I made you cry today, just when I said we could pre record our voice and send it in a teddy bear after we get her referral, it hit me that our little girl is going to recognize our voice when we go to get her! See I may not have the weight gain but I have the *Wait gain* I get more emotional than most women I know who are physically pregnant and I have CRAVINGS darn it! So you seen it first hand! (My friends Kim and Jocelyne can vouch for me too.) Am I right or am I right? My body may not be *Physically* pregnant but my hormones are mimicking pregnancy.
I have to get over there to get my baby fill one of these days soon and to kiss those cute little cheeks. ( of AJ's, no not yours Jeff!)
Talk to ya soon,
Hug AJ for me


Doris & Dan Clark said...

That is sweet. The smallest things can get the mind going and the heart a fluttering.

Keep smilin!

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Anonymous said...

That AJ is the cutest little bug! And you're not the only one extra emotional...I feel like I cry at the drop of a hat these days. :)

Drea said...

Hey Deb! I can completely see that happening to me! I think thats awesome!

Shannon said...

Oh that is so sweet... you should scrapbook this story for her so she knows how much she was loved before she was even in your arms!!

Janet said...

That is soooo cute, you standing there crying in public! Cry on, girl! You have every right!

Ann said...

So sweet. It's all very emotional, I find myself crying all the time. Oh and you know if you need my address to send those extra cookies to I could give it to you...heehee :0)

kim said...

I'll dito what Janet said!!
AJ is a cutie pie!! WOW..what a happy baby & looks healthy too!!
I often find myself choking back the tears when I think about saying goodbye to people hear when I'm leaving for China, having Channing placed in my arms, getting of the plane in Canada with her and friends & family waiting.....the list goes on and on!! I'm right here with ya when you said this: "I can sit on the rocking chair and let my imagination go wild with dreams, thoughts, plans, hopes, and aspirations, thats when the Mama hormones kick in and I feel most alive"....

kim said...

Forgot to add:
Thanks for sharing your feelings with us!!